Anyway, I was feeling overwhelmed by that extreme difficulty I'd be facing upon awakening and was also in a very 'I. Cannot. Do. It' mindset. It's not a mindset that I often find myself in but there it was, and I had no confidence left in my body's ability to get itself home. When the morning arrived and the time came to get a taxi to the train station, my goodbye with Will ended with an enveloping hug and a "you got this" in my ear. It was a tiny thing but it was also an important thing that I really, really needed. It was the important, comforting thing that I wanted to hear and I stopped thinking 'I can't' and started thinking 'I so can'. I haven't heard it since, but perhaps that's because I'm able to tell it to myself - and if not, Will seems to have an inbuilt "you got this"-sensor.
To be honest I can't even remember that particular journey so it must've been alright - I'm sure my body felt completely and utterly broken as it does on a daily basis, but I did it. I made it when I was sure I couldn't, and I wanted to share that with you today.
'You got this' applies to countless situations, I feel. It's not saying 'just do it', it's saying 'however long you need and whatever roads you need to take, it's fine - you'll get there, and you're stronger than you know'. Whether you're leaving your job for a new one, getting out of a harmful relationship, bringing up a child, starting a blog, coming out to your family, waking up to fight your chronic illness another day, attempting to get the wings of your eyeliner even, about to sit an exam... it's always relevant.
Just in case you haven't heard it enough lately or indeed ever, or you tell yourself 'I can't' so much you've started to believe it, or you don't have anyone to squeeze your shoulder and say three little words - this one's for you. Every situation of your existence so far that you told yourself you couldn't get through, you got through. Every day of your life so far that you thought you couldn't face, you've faced. So, I say with confidence...
...you got this.
Meg you were such an inspiration thanks for sharing your story!
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<3 <3 <3 looooove this so so much, I could read this every day, such a lovely little pick me up! You're the best Meg, you're beautiful on the outside and on the inside! Thanks for writing this :) xx
ReplyDeleteThis is so lovely of you Meg, always using your experiences to help others. You're right that 'you got this' is so much more than 'just do it', it's comforting and less patronising, and it's definitely what people need to hear more often. Lovely post as always xx
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Oh my goodness Meg this may just be my favourite blog post I've ever read. I can't begin to tell you how encouraging your lovely words are and this is a quote I'm definitely going to hang on to for future tough days <3
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Meg, thank you for sharing it! I think this was belief is for me - not about particular thing, particular date, but about the whole. That whatever and how long it would take, it's possible. Maybe even not in the form I see it, but it's possible. Though in three words - three so content words.
ReplyDeleteThis post made me want to hug you. Virtual but warm hugs to share my belief in you. That you are stronger than illness. That even in the darkest times you have your own light, light of your soul. It doesn't make anything easier, but I believe it's something we should say to each other if we think it. Thank you for being such an amazing person with a beautiful soul. Thank you
Yes! This is my motto on a daily basis. Thank you so much for writing such a beautiful post :)
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Oh goodness I'm crying now! I've just had a massive wobble and this was a lovely pick me up, thank you Meg <3
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Such a simple yet effective saying! I love the way you write - it's so inspiring and motivating. I actually found your blog from your Youtube (which I also love). I think I already commented this on one of your videos but you come across as the most lovely person and the positivity really shines out in your videos and even in your writing :) Keep doing what you're doing! xx
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Such an inspirational post Meg, you've got this!
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This is such an inspirational and much needed post Meg.
ReplyDeleteI just came across your blog and am so glad I did. I am so inspired not only by your story but by your strength. I also feel so happy to read about someone else's experiences with a chronic illness. Granted, my condition (cystinosis, a rare kidney condition) isn't as debilitating as ME (that is, after being fortunate enough to receive a kidney transplant when I was eight), I can relate with so many things you discuss. I feel like I'm forever visiting doctors, GPS, going for blood tests and the like, and my immune system isn't as strong as compared to other people. But what I relate to most is your total refusal not to let your illness get you down or let it stop you from doing the things you want to do! I admire you greatly for that :)
xx Carina
Wow, I really needed to read this today. I was originally diagnosed with M.E when I was 15, but have struggled with my health my whole life and more recently have started to accumulate other serious and life changing diagnoses. Over the last year my health has nosedived pretty spectacularly and for the first time in a very long time I feel terrified of what my future is going to hold (or not, as the case may be). I'm pretty much at an all time low and am at the point where I feel like ending my life is the only way to escape this pain, but reading this post has just given me that little lift to keep me going another day. Thank you.
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